hi welcome to my. kinlist !there are different sections because i AM a nerd and i like being fully understood without assumptions. more explanations in each section ok?
i love projecting and being associated w characters it means the world to me <3
this is for my significant kins, characters who i heavily relate to or characters who i may focus on more because of certain medias i am focused on. if you hover or press on the images they will have brief explanations. I am at the moment leaning heavy on characters from MaIruma !
lied shax - with those i love, i am quite hyperactive and loud, almost mirroring his + my issue with concentration & games. i used to not care about classmates & friends.. but ive found my people now
alice asmo - with the people i am close with, i get very protective. share a temper and we are quite blunt to people who we are not close to. bad habit of hyper focusing on someone (this has improved)
shichiro balam - i am insecure with how i present myself. i try to be very caring for others. i have a very bad habit of touching people, this is how i often show my trust & love. i can be very passionate about my interests
goro akechi - fictkin, i dont truly feel like i have a solid personality, it shifts. my life is on academic validation and being wanted + with a purpose. I can be violent but also very restrained when needed
stan marsh - literally everything about him almost reflects me. to his regular personality and humour, but also his issues with identity and depression. just everything
phos - esp winter arc and forward. i am haunted by people who i used to love in the past. still somewhat loud but sometimes it is dulled down by my experiences with life, causing breaks in my mental state
denki - loud and hyperactive. however also the pain of being dumbed down & seen as joke by most people because of how loud i am, when i am capable of doing so much.
callie cuttlefish - honestly changed my life, and i took her name. i resonate with her so much. to her personality but also struggles with her insecurities + loneliness & disconnection
yosuke hanamura ! fictkin, personality common theme. but he is also quite blunt and honest most of the time, maybe even harsh. big heart. also the need to be special to someone, but overcoming this over time
netzach, also fictkin - i am so constantly filled with guilt and during my lows, i am extremely pessimistic but i also tend to avoid doing anything just wallow in my misery hoping to die
doppo - habit of overworking myself & not being confident in defending myself. anxious and also pessimistic. but i care strongly about others and will defend them instead. also a temper and #depression
basch zwingli - often i prefer isolation. its hard for me to warm up most of the time but i care strongly. i have an issue with spending money, extremely hesitant to spend it even if its for myself
olruggio - can u see the pattern ( blunt/harsh but very caring ) dedicated to helping others but i actually suck ass at deadlines ( last minute anything) and the habit to overwork myself
riddle - i can be very harsh on rules and others following them, i am scared of punishments and others receiving it too. i crave structure & academic validation. short temper. was sheltered by parents, not much freedom until now
twilight - at times i can be antisocial, but ive grown to be better. i love academia.. i want to react logically and be smart, but it can get too much where i overreact and focus too much on logistics / structure
kurode - blunt but still trying to be kind and gentle to others. i constantly compare myself to others, not feeling good enough - almost inferior. however i still have a strong competitive drive to be the best
eridan ampora - extremely volatile and i try to be loud to be bold. but in reality i struggled with relationships and feeling extremely lonely by those around me. which can lead to extreme reactions
zenitsu - extremely anxious and i do cry a lot. my self-esteem is so shit and i am pessimistic. bad history with relationships but the need to find love so i'm not lonely
balloon - when i was younger, i was a cruel child and often just disliked. however i hold guilt to that past and want to change heavily. trying to be more kind and gentle. often anxious and can end up being childish
leafy - similarly, a bad past which made me a dislikable person because i was too much. emotions are volatile but i try to move on from the past and be a better person. struggle with past relations & insecure
i dont often focus on them but i can strongly relate to them at times, key themes that are important but theyre not extremely significant to my character.. these are not in order though
alice - bad temper and takes me a while to warm up to trust, i try to be helpful and kind when i have warmed up enough. tendency to be childish over minor things that just upset me anyway..
bachira - grew up quite alone, because nobody really liked me for being weird. grew up loud and strange, still am but i feel more comfortable being myself due to my friends
genya - hostile and a temper, tendency to be implusive. however, i am very loyal to those i care about almost no matter what. very insecure about myself
kabru - i try and put on a front so i can please everyone or do what is best for any situation. but i have a bad habit of having violent outbursts / mindsets, where i desire to hurt someone so they can get out of my way
present mic - i want to be loud and extra to make people feel happy & excited. to be seen as a bright person. i am very capable. I HATE BUGS AND IM SCARED OF MOST OF THEM
ranmaru - easy going, habit of being somewhat awkward and distant unless someone actually tries interacting with me. fear of death.. sometimes i like to poke fun at people but not fully
mithrun - i am disabled, during low points i want to give up and not continue. where i wish my body would give up because i feel trapped and the left overs of who i used to be before it affected me more
fu - i need structure and orders because i am horrifically afraid of messing up or doing something wrong where people will then shun me. i cant think properly if i don't have straight forward instructions
yi sang - i like to observe and sometimes be distant. strong guilt of the past. i can be melancholic. socially awkward, but i am intelligent id say. bad habit of not understanding things and taking them literally
sou hiyori - heavily relate to the past experiences he has had with midori ( negatively ) i tend be highly suspicious of others out of fear & lack of trust..
floyd - mood swings, sometimes i change a lot of choices i make because of how i feel. temper,,, i most of the time don't like doing things because i find them boring or i'm not motivated enough
sinclair - i am not good with confrontation, and struggle with doubt. i want to be more logical but my emotions can get too much. when they don't i give into my angry impulses
rin - i have the need to prove myself that i am great and valuable. i hold strong resentment towards those who betray me or my trust.
cater - honestly one of the unexpected characters i relate to. i try to put on a front of not really caring and being laid back. distant cuz i am too scared of getting too attached. my identity issues r abysmal & i try to change myself a lot
noe - i get easily distracted and im fascinated by a lot of things. id say im emotionally intelligent maybe.. i struggle to make decisions a lot and my morals can be a bit too self-sacrificing. i am forgetful
hifumi - i can be tone deaf and rude sometimes.. but i mean for the best for others and i do genuinely care ! tendency to be kind to others even if they've done me dirty, but i've improved on that
akira - people don't really like me, i try to present myself as very friendly. first i can be awkward but i have grown to be loud and speak more freely. used to be constantly accused and being a scapegoat for others
zanka - another kinda unexpected but also expected. i struggle with my worth, i see myself as not good enough to be viewed highly or i dont deserve it. i do have exaggerated outbursts when i can't hold them in anymore
starlight - i am very anxious and can be reckless when i need to solve something, leaning back into bad habits so things could go my way. deep fear of actually being responsible and being abandoned
yoshiki - INTERALISED HOMOPHOBIA, fear of how those around me like family would react. very loyal and i care strongly for my friends. i contain my opinions a lot of the time.. kinda gloomy
reagan - i have a small tolerance for people who getting involved with what i do but aren't competent. i can be very competitive. takes me a good while to properly warm up and express myself to people
tsumugi aoba - i always want to help others and be there for them. my self-esteem is in the gutters.. i am emotionally unstable and struggle with anxiety. i like making people happy though
redson - my temper can be very explosive if triggered, or just naturally loud. i can be very desperate for approval by others or those i admire. sometimes i like being theatrical
eugene - I AM MY OWN WORST ENEMY ! i am too harsh towards myself, criticising a lot of things i do or think. i am a nerd yes i am smart ! but i often feel disconnected from others
haejoon goh - i was seen as a violent kid growing up and never had that many friends who weren't scared. sometimes i feel over smothered by my mother and i wanted to live far. hidden depression, very relatable if you read no home
klarkstella - i am not a big fan of new people most of the time. i often have a standoffish personality and be blunt. but i strong care and love for my closest ones. also interested in machinery...
they go in the odd section because theyre either: just there because they remind me of myself for fun or i am ashamed of the traits i share even if its not obvious/open to others - kinda dark for me
michael kaiser - hes a bum im mad i relate to him. i tend to use a loud/proud front at times to hide how mentally weak and vulnerable i can be. and i enjoy coming out on top a lot. on the bright side, similar interests like philosophy
eichi - also mad i kin him but also not. hes disabled and has a weak body which i heavily relate to, resulting to efficiency. can be extremely petty and childish, entertainment when people i dislike suffer. i struggle with socialising but i want friends
ramuda - idk how to feel tbf. another disabled character. i struggle expressing my true emotions most of the time. i heavily care for my close friends. i try to be loud and bubbly but often than not my thoughts/opinions feel very dark
berdley - hes seen as really annoying and nerd who does too much. which often hurts a lot for me.. he also struggles with actually having proper friends and people who actually like him. relying on those who will somewhat give him a shred of love
popee - hes just there cause he reminds me of me for fun. but also my violent and impulsive tendencies
momoa - we don't know much but she's just me,, the vibes and general feeling
monoma - similar to kaiser actually, proud and loud front but just very insecure underneath. need to prove his worth & be important
dib - me for fun but also not, not often taken seriously but is smart.. ok. he me caus ya
obanai - hes here cause i feel like.. theres certain aspects that are me if you just have to know me
beetle - this me if i was an angel literally
tolys - HE LITERALLY LOOKS LIKE ME AND ITS ME IF I WAS JUST INSANELY ANXIOUS LIKE ME. hes also my nationality
eunyung baek - he actually makes me clench my heart. hes loud and brash. trying to put a front of not really caring but he tries so hard to do his best and prove others wrong that hes worth it. always arguing and he can very volatile. tendency to steal asw
rook hunt - hes just me for fun, also i scare some people and i get way to close/personal but im more secretive. i find everything beautiful
four - idk how to feel about him either. hes loud and childish with a temper, doing things his own way but thats relatable to me in a way
cielomort - not sure,, we're both socially clueless at times / nosy + pushy. ive overworked myself so much in the past few years so im exhausted a lot. adore sky observing. takes me a while to emotionally open up, even if i appear polite on the front